Computer Angel

Haha!
a glance
a smile
a nod..
makes me smile a bit
and blush..
a word
a laugh..
once, twice, how many times?
everyday!
Hmmm..
such an Angel.
Thanks!

Hide 'n Sick

gentleness. kindheartedness. godliness.
where are you?

truthfulness. honesty. trustworthiness.
where are you?

bravery. individuality. maturity.
where are you?

principles. morale. character.
where are you?

where are you hiding?
what keeps you so long?
please reveal yourself now-
He is still waiting..

well well well...

These past few months, i've been quite let say, unwell. I've been struggling over some things that are way too much for my own strength. Been so devastated, broken, torn into pieces, confused, bothered, worried, angry, hurt, yeah.. sooooo UNWELL.

Though God was leading me on the right path, i was so stubborn to listen. So full of pride that i thought i could make everything right and that i don't need anybody to help me, even Him. His words were everywhere. He used so many people to make me realize the wrong doings that i had. And yet, i was still so conceited to obey.

Then BAM! Another pounding, and so i said. "Ok, Lord. I'll do it." But no, i broke my promise. Once, twice, thrice.. too many times. The flesh was ruling over me. The sinful nature was too strong, the Spirit became too weak. So once again, another hit, another slap, smash, BAM! BOG! BLAG! TOINK! Haay, why did i allow myself to undergo a lot of pounding before giving in..

Now, i know what to do. And I have started it. I'm letting go of my idols in life. May the Lord just be with me always in this very difficult task. Godhelp.

i'll be well soon

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me

sa kabila ng bundok..

Ka Ibigan,


Ilang buwan na din simula nang una kong narinig. Namumundok ka din pala tulad nila. Noong una, ayaw ko pang maniwala. Pero siguro nga.. siguro nga kaya ka palaging lambot at palaging hapo tuwing magkasama tayo. Kakapagod nga kasi ang ginagawa mo. Sangkaterbang lakas at enerhiya ang siguradong ginugugol mo. Kai-kainamang taguan at pakikipagsapalaran.

Bakit naman kasi naisipan mo pa 'yang gawin? Gusto kong maging masaya para sa 'yo (sapagkat sa kandungan ng bundok na pinagkukublian mo, batid kong pag-ibig ang nakamtan mo).. pero hindi ko magawa. Napapabuntong-hininga na lang ako tuwing naiisip kita. Masaya nga siguro diyan, subalit sana hindi ka maanod at malunod sa rumaragasang lagaslas ng batis.

Ayaw kitang husgahan subalit sa mata ng Diyos at sa mata ng lipunan.. ewan! hindi ko na din ata alam. Basta, basta.. mag-iingat ka. Dalangin ko na lang na malalampasan mo ang madadawag na landasin. Sana'y dumating din ang panahon na hindi mo na kailangan pang maglihim. Sana din ay tumatawag ka pa din sa Kanya, siya na totoong pinagmumulan ng lakas, kaligayahan at pag-ibig.

P.S. Kung nagkasala man ako sa iyo at nabigo kita sa kung ano mang paraan, patawarin mo ako. Asahan mong pagmamahal pa din ang nasa puso ko.

Sumasaiyo,
kaibigan