I was supposed to write something about my experiences on my way to Batangas for the holidays, and on my way back to Manila and then to Clark. That's why the title is JAM packed. Well, for one, it includes the name of the bus and second, well.. the words say it all.
Haggard. Kakapagod. Andaming gago. Andaming kawawa. Sangkaterbang bagahe ng mga tao. Mga matandang binabalewala. Mga babae at buntis na hindi pinapaupo. I could go on and on and but I'll just end up criticizing 'men' in general. So wag na lang, though I'm happy to tell you na I've learned din naman na me mga gentleman pa sa mundo; me mga maginoo pa na hindi nakatiis at nag-offer ng seats nila for me. :)
Hemingways, that was what I was supposed to write or rather, rant about. That was before i received a call from a friend. And then, eto nga. We talked. About our lives. Other people's lives. And our loved ones' lives.
Hay... dati, New Year for me is nothing but a new year. Kainan, putukan, kasiyahan, and then konting New Year's resolution. Ngayon, i don't know, maybe i never did this before, maybe i nevr took it seriously, maybe i never had the time to reflect, or maybe i have never encountered sooooooooooooooo maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaany issues hindi lang sa buhay ko kundi sa buhay ng mga taong nakapaligid sa kin, but ngayon ko lang naramdaman ang pressure ng Bagong Taon... Ng Bagong Buhay.
I looked at what my life had been the previous year. Of course, there've been blessings brought by the sacrifices and the hard work and there's always a lesson learned for every mistake that i had (i hope so...), but there are still things that i need to fix and unfinished tasks that i need done. Foreseeing the year ahead, this will be a very tough one. Sa opisina. Sa mga Kabarkada. Sa mga Kaibigan. Sa mga Kakilala. Sa mga Kapuso. Sa mga Kapamilya! Andaming dapat ayusin. Andaming dapat isaalang-alang. Andaming dapat iwanan. Andaming dapat harapin!
Pero obligasyon ko nga bang gawin ang lahat ng mga 'to? Me karapatan ba akong gawin ang mga bagay na yun? Pakikialam kaya yun? Panghihimasok? Panggugulo? o Pagtulong kaya 'yong matatawag?
Ewan ko, hindi ko na naman alam ang sagot. Basta, what I do know is I have the best of intentions. Sana makatulong, pero kung me masasaktan, kung me masasaling, ipagdarasal ko na lang na mauunawaan nila. And I'll pray that God will be behind me and with me in all this... I'll pray that He'll be with all of us and our loved ones as we face all the challenges that this new year brings....
Tapusin ko na 'to. Basta, Isang Mapagbago at Masaganang Bagong Taon sa ating lahat!
